The Unconditional Love of Christ - Paul Washer

and i hear this for the third time... the first; brought me to tears as i was listening to the full length sermon. with peace by Holy Spirit covering me.
this morning i listen. and i watch pw. he is crying. i have awoken from a nightmare wherein i sinned in my sleep? is this possible?
woe is me i dwell among men of unclean lips! the unclean man is me. the race of humans with indwelling sin is me.
the desperation sin brings. the destruction and degradation and pain to humanity.
yet some wallow in it, some enjoy it, and some when born again despise it.
woe is me i dwell in a tent of unclean flesh
tormented by my own flesh my spirit wants to fly away Home!!
away from this awful body of death!
and as i watched it this second time, this short clip hoping to have joy.
i was blank. and fully aware that i deserve nothing.
and i dont know to do. i dont know how to stop what is happening.
i cry to Him and He stops the thoughts and images in the day.
and then they come at night even more vivid and im involved.
i asked Him before i went to sleep to protect my dreams, guard my heart and mind...
yet; He let my flesh take control in my vulnerability of sleep.
oh how i dont want to sleep anymore.
yest i dont want to be awake. this fight. this war between flesh and spirit.
is mine. no one to help. no one to understand exactly.
i dont understand.
He is there and He stands by and tells me to stand.
the battle is the Lord's
but im caught in the middle because satan hates God
and im God's therefore he hates me more than unregenerate men and women.
and the third time of the video..i only halfway listened..
started searching the web halfway thru...
and here is this blog as a result.