The Battle With Sin: Intro - Tim Conway

this is really good.
i thought i was alone. that i was only one with bad thoughts that plague me
sometimes. making me think i wasn't saved. such darkness, this battle sometimes.
im so glad to hear this study. thankful to Jesus for this. it gives me great relief.
i hope if you come across this blog and you are in this like some of us.. that it will help you. its helping me. but the battle is still so AWFUL.
i thought i was losing my soul. but this is part of the christian life.
LORD keep me till the end. dont let me fall away and dont let me give in.
let t he cross have marks where my nails have dug in beneath where your feet were.
dont let me go Lord. dont let me go.
im weak and i dont know how. but i know how to hold onto something for dear life.
if im hanging over the side of a cliff hanging on to the Branch im not letting go until He pulls me up and sets my feet on the flat surface.. Rock.. again.
the pharisees tried to push Jesus off that cliff.. because He was holy. because they didnt like what He was doing or saying...which He was obeying God..
the devil doesnt want me or you to obey God and so this war goes on.
i thought to myself yesterday.. i think i might rather be in a physical war on the front lines than this spiritual war. i think it is harder that being on a front line M-16. yes ppl are dying all around. smoke. explosions. tears. yelling. motorcades.
traps and snares... blood. flesh flying. shrapnel.
but there.. its not a battle for my soul. when i die i go to be with HIM.
im fighting for what ever reason on a front line.
this.. this spiritual battle seems crazy!!! i cant understand what is going on sometimes.
i cant hear Father. i cant remember scripture when im being assaulted. i try. i try. and it turns to tears and i call help JESUS. SHEPHERD!!! help me.
if i remember to call on Him...and not thinking He is against me..
now that i have heard this study...intro.. im realizing it is the same thing that happens to other believers..on the battle field..
im not standing there alone... in front of a fireing squad..tanks...

though this is what it seems like... or maybe  i am. except the LORD is with me. the Captain of my salvation.

i need Jesus is all i know. i cant make the thoughts go away. i can try my hardest to think good
to keep my mind on things above. but even then..intrusive..blasphemous arrows are thrown at me...

Immanuel.

and now... though the speakers do not work on my computer..and i do not know how to fix them..
i pray the LORD will..so i can hear these sermons again.. and the rest of the study. i cant read lips.
LORD help me... i know the words to this song.. though i cannot hear it...
pillar..frontline.

its real. the war is real

-if this war is real...and it IS...For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.
(Ephesians 6.12)

-but the Lord has already won it...~He Himself likewise shared in the same, that through death He might destroy him who had the power of death, that is, the devil, 15 and release those who through fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage.
(Hebrews 2.14-15)

-yet He fights for me...The LORD your God, who goes before you, He will fight for you, according to all He did for you in Egypt before your eyes..
(Deuteronomy 1.30)

-stand strong and see the salvation of the Lord...
You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of the LORD, who is with you, O Judah and Jerusalem!’ Do not fear or be dismayed; tomorrow go out against them, for the LORD is with you.”
2 Chronicles 2.17

but there are so many battles.. and so many
casualties.. wounded... dying.. is there hope?
why do soldiers leave each other behind?
why are soldiers not treated equally among each other..
in this battle not of flesh and blood.. there is only One Commander..
there are no 1st Sergeants, no brass butter bars, no PFC's and no Colonels.

ONE God. One Shepherd. One Lord. ONE ARMY.
not army of one...

One Body? well who attends to the sucking chest wound...who applies gauze to the bleeding.
who applies the tourniquet? what if someone shoots their toe off? does the whole body get thrown out of the army?
where is the camaraderie? or you might say unity....
i will tell you..
it is being devoured by the enemy as one another nit pick and backbite,
gossiping and not loving.
But if you bite and devour one another, beware lest you be consumed by one another!
(Galatians 5.15)
they are not letting the wounds in the body heal, but are infecting them more
and tearing off the scab re-opening the wound.
some walk with a limp.
some with crippled hands.
some with brokenness.

constant defeat on the battlefield leads to hopelessness
and despair. Paul despaired of life.
He was treated very bad by the people of God.

where is the one who will help his or her brethren? where are the Pauls and Timothys? Where are good men like Titus? Where are the modern Lydias and Tryphena and Tryphosa Where is Peter? Where is Chloe?
Where is Jesus walking now?
are christians so selfish that they will turn from the wounded
and dying with their nose in the air as if nothing is happening?




didnt Christ die for ALL HIS BRETHREN? did not Father give them too HIM?
where is the one who is not afraid of helping others? no matter who they are
or what they have done?? God has mercy...
are we not to follow in Christ's footsteps?
He did say "Follow Me." (Mark 8.34) He said "follow Me" over and over...


Tell me...is the battle against satan with the Body of Christ as one unified front able to defeat the enemy?
or is it the body of Christ fighting amongst themselves, tearing each other apart.
Agape love grows so cold...it is like ice.. and hard hearts.

For all the law is fulfilled in one word, even in this:
“You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”
Galatians 5.14